not so many rides...

well riding my harley, hmmm...has´nt been so usual anymore, because of the pesky 24 pills (plus some 5 more now ...Zovirax ) per day that i have to take to my heart sarcoidosis. i´m starting to look like a moon faced, ball, with loads of kilos more, and a very rounded face. i hate it. + the feeling is like i´m constantly under drugs. all the time hungry, my feet a looking like elephants feet, and i get some infections too damn easy. :-(

I REALLY DONT LIKE IT, but what can i do? well in the positive side.... i can cruise with my cars & do things. if the cancer would have been the HOT ticket, i would be throwwing up etc. so theres allways a +

 side. remember that!

Holy shit - i´ve got a cancer?

yes, after looong coffing, high blood pressure, loosing weight, pain in the chest etc... i got to the xray, that showed something... i got a call from the doctor to get to a better computer xray, that showed even more bad things and now i´m going to the xray for the third time, this time they will be checking me all over, + some blood tests, + cut some samples of me. :-( so what can i say?

i hope to get in back in the shape, and to be able to play with my boy,
drive & ride again... and drive that F...ng pauter engine as well...damn.
for the moment my hopes are not sky high...
but i will fight these suckers, as much i can.
i will go to the meilahti hospital tomorrow...thats all for this day, but theres more to come
- and i sure hope that it is better news...

OK IT WASNT cancer, but it might be a sarkoidosis in the heart. this case is not closed yet, i´m visiting hospitals in check ups etc...